well i am gonna start right now.
this is what max payne say's in his last appearence and its so true.....(well those who dont know max payne..feel free to use google)

"I LIED TO MYSELF THAT IT WAS OVER
BUT IT WASN'T...........
AND IT WILL BE WORSE BEFORE IT ENDS,
YOU CANT RUN FROM YOUR PAST
THIS IS LOVE........ AND LOVE HURTS."